Thursday, September 18, 2008 @6:25 AM
firstly, i think this week, no, actually starting from like ytd or so, i felt like so happy and light headed. as though ive finally unloaded a burden. ( in fact i think i did, after i tht thru some stuff and xiang tong :D) okay i have some clarifications. i am soooo not on a diet. because i EAT A LOT. if u dont believe me, i ll show what i mean by A LOT.i ll cite you today as an example:6am: breakfast. drank milk. ate cereal.9am?: sch during umm chem? tablebuddies started chewing on my 'wheatables' MUAHAH. (and its not a healthy food i realised even though it looks like hamster food as quoted by jennifer -.-) i realised it has sugra and like salt and dunno what unhealthy stuff on it! 9.45am: ate whole packet of wheatables, which is in fact, VERY FULLING. i watched the whole grp of ppl mainly consisting of tablebuddy, stephpang, chelly, huilin eating and it seriously does not tempt me at all. canteen food is oily. 12pm: lunch breakkk. ate bread. i needa save money! 2.30pm: bought mango juice and drank while meeting zheng laoshi3.30pm?: went to pop and ate THE THIRD KIT KAT BAR THIS WEEK + oheyo 4.30pm: drank bubbletea 6.30pm: dinner - ate a bowl of rice and meat (no veggie as usual xD)7.30pm: cherries to provide my vitamin C!8pm: ate half a durian mooncake. and i mean, those LARGE ONES. =/and no more so far. i do hope i wont eat anymore because this kind of lousy eating habbits is UNACCEPTABLE. anyways, attemp to jian fei always wont work.AND BSP IS QUITE STRESSFUL. i have to work on a lot of stuff. and theres so much to cram out. but nevertheless, im confident yx and i can handle this well :DEOYS EOYS. like wth. i dont care. why make my life so stressed up la. i ll mug when i feel like (which is most prob in sch) esp during humanities period BUT dont worry i ll some how find a way to force myself to study really hard. because i do want to have good results. but at the same time, i cant stress myself out so much. after all, its only eoys and WHY MAKE MY LIFE SO MISERABLE WHEN LIFE IS SUPPOSED FOR YOU TO HAVE FUNN?! :DDi know next yr is gonna be a really tough year, with guzheng SYF (being a sec 4 senior is not easy, being a lousy and setting-bad eg senior by missing gz for a long time because of leg injury and china trip is even harder, as you have to work extra hard and prove that you do belong to the cca. secondly, im trainin hard in epee. much as i feel that foil is truly my love, epee is fun in its own way too. and yes, i will train hard. regardless yog or not, i will continue it. because FENCING IS THE LOVE :Dthirdly, im gonna dance twice a week. latin is definitely in, and perhaps either salsa with nicole goh, or um hiphop orrr chinese dance! haha with steph? o.0. i do want to get in MAD in hci. fourthly, i am still weighing my options whether to sign up for the leadeship development prog thing. i know it requires commitment too, which i am not sure whether i am able to do so. however, i truly believe that it does inspire one, as a person, to mature and develope too. Furthermore, i strongly believe that if i were to put in effort for that, it can be truly meaningful and funn.lastly, sec 4 is not an easy year to cope, in terms of schoolwork. the passing grade is msg <3,>
life is not gonna be easy, but i ll embrace it. AND MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT :D
ps this was supposed to be a really short post, proving how i am NOT ON A DIET. but it turned out to be some lengthy grandma story. ahha. i need better summary skills.